The Homeless Don’t Want Your Pickled Beets




I was rifling through the kitchen pantry, classifying an overwhelming collection of non-perishables into one of two categories.

“Hmmmmm. Pickled beets.” Slight pause. “Give.” And I placed the can on the dining room table. Spaghetti-o’s that were just a tad (3 months) past the expiration date. “Give.” A bottle of hot sauce labeled Ass Reaper. “Keep.” Wait. I took a better look at the ominous skull attached to the screw cap and knew there was no way in hell my family would ever uncork that shit. “Give.”

And so it went as I separated the “keeps” from the “gives”. It was November and time to exercise the utmost benevolence by putting together a box or two of food to take to the local homeless shelter.

When you sort through a full pantry, it’s always surprising the things you find, most of it stuff you didn’t even know you had. Canned salmon. Pie filling. Gourmet muffin mixes. Bags of rainbow-colored lentils. Protein bars. Artisan peanut butter.

And pickled beets.

I stacked the “keep” items in precise rows, organized by meal, with all labels facing forward. Working retail had taught me about the power of presentation. I then took stock of the collection of “give” items on the table. It was all crap, stuff that had been gathering dust in the dark corners of the pantry for months, if not years. Stuff I knew my family would never eat.

But maybe someone else’s would.

“The homeless are lucky to get anything,” I grumbled to myself.

I’m not sure in what alternate universe pickled beets are better than nothing. “Lucky to get shitty food” is an alarming combination of five words that should never, ever go together.But that was my modus operandi as I started packing the “give” food into boxes, feeling incredibly proud of my propensity for charitable giving… and of my neatly stacked pantry.

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught my young son watching me while quietly munching on his morning pop tart. He didn’t say anything, just watched as I stacked the food into boxes. Our eyes locked just as I picked up a can of expired water chestnuts.

I held his unassuming stare for a few moments. Then looked at the cans in front of me. And then looked at my bulging pantry.

As I focused on the rows of food stacked high… in a pantry that was always full and always accessible and always privy to my incessant complaining about how “we have nothing to eat”…I was overcome with a sense that my world was not quite what it seemed.

I was ashamed. For thinking that the homeless people of my community actually deserved crappy food. For mistaking my ignorant selfishness for generosity. For teaching my son to keep the best for himself.

I began gathering jars of corn and chili and tuna fish and macaroni and cheese and hipster muffin mixes and boxes of “good” cereal and peaches and cake mixes and fancy jellies and loaded them into the boxes on my table. I filled five of them that day, and still my pantry was full.

Plentiful beyond belief.

My life changed a little bit that day.

What does it mean to give?

It’s so incredibly easy to say, “The poor are lucky to get what I’m giving. They had nothing. Now they have something.” Or, “Why should the homeless eat better than me?”

Are we all of a sudden tenured members of an all-knowing panel on humanity? One that deems what other human beings deserve?

We’ve all seen homeless people on corners with signs that read “Anything helps” or “Why lie? I need a beer.” And we catch ourselves thinking, “Yeah, but if I give them money, they’re just going to buy meth with it. Or go to the McDonald’s and blow it on a value meal. I want to know that my money is going to good use. I want them to use my money for what I think they deserve, for what I think they need.” And then we stare straight ahead or start fiddling with our phones, careful not to make eye contact.

Here’s the thing. We’ve all had lousy days. Most of us have not had lousy lives like so many of our homeless population have. Who am I to say that a person doesn’t deserve a Big Mac? That they must buy a bag of apples instead. Maybe at that exact moment, a hot hamburger would be the very thing that would make them happy. Will they use money given to them for alcohol or drugs? Perhaps. But maybe they won’t. Maybe they’ll take what I can offer and buy a $1.99 loaf of bread for themselves and a bag of dog food for their loyal four-legged friend that unconditionally stands by them on the coldest of street corners. It’s a chance I’m willing to take. I don’t get to choose how they will spend the money.

I choose to simply give.

I was lucky to grow up in a nurturing family that valued individuality and accomplishment. I was taught from an early age to work hard for the things I wanted in life. I was given the privilege of pursuing my talents through lessons and classes. My dad helped me with my math homework every night. I had a warm bed to snuggle into at the end of each day. Every morning, I was fed a good breakfast. I had shoes that fit.

I was so fortunate. Still am.

Why me? Why was I handed this wonderful life while others frantically struggle to survive day after day?

What if I had a different set of parents? What if I grew up believing that I didn’t matter, that I was a trivial burden, that I had nothing to contribute to the world. What if I observed from an early age that alcohol and drugs were the best way to deal with the problems of life? What if I had been born into a generational cycle of poverty and indifference?

This I do know: I would not be writing these words at this very moment… as a load of laundry is drying upstairs while I’m trying to decide if I should go to Ireland before Iceland or the other way around.

I don’t have the answers. I only know that I am fortunate. Beyond measure. And because of that, I must give freely. I don’t have the luxury to say, “You don’t deserve my time or money because I don’t know how to compassionately deal with your situation.”

Right now, in America:

  • There are 1,750,000 homeless adults
  • 44% of homeless people did paid work in the past month
  • The average monthly income of a homeless person is $348
  • 66% of homeless adults have problems with alcohol, drug abuse or mental illness
  • 1 in 30 children are homeless
  • 31 million people live in hunger or on the edge of hunger

So, I’m just going to say it….

The homeless don’t want your fucking pickled beets. They want to know that they matter. That they are valued. That they, too, deserve good things in life.

To be made to feel like you are special solely because you are a human being and part of the grand circle of life… that is powerful stuff.

Give, my friends. Give so freely that it cracks open your heart and makes it 23 times bigger. Permanently. Give what you’d want to receive. Give the best of what you’ve got, whether it’s time, money or the food in your well-stocked pantry.

I believe in you.

On a side note, a percentage of my income for 2015 will be going to the Cascade Youth and Family Center in my hometown of Bend, Oregon (a city often referred to as “poverty with a view). CYFC is the “sole provider of a comprehensive spectrum of services targeted to work with runaway, homeless and throwaway youth in Deschutes County.”

Throwaway youth. Sigh.

We must do better.

13 comments leave a reply
  • November 20, 2014 at 2:50 pm
    Ashley Irving

    Lovely story, thanks for sharing.


    • November 21, 2014 at 11:55 am

      Thanks, Ashley! Homelessness is a topic that is very close to my heart.


  • November 20, 2014 at 3:31 pm

    You’re holding up the mirror today, Maisie. I’ve gone through that exact line of thinking, too. Thanks for making me revisit it.


    • November 21, 2014 at 11:58 am

      Hi Beth! Thanks for your comment, my friend. It’s always quite stunning when our mindsets shift. 🙂


  • November 20, 2014 at 4:24 pm
    Kathryn Brown

    Thank you for this post, Maisie! You’ve touched on a topic that is really close to my heart.


    • November 21, 2014 at 11:59 am

      Me too, Kathryn! The plight of the homeless is becoming a soul project for me.


  • November 20, 2014 at 4:44 pm

    Your comment about the homeless may buy a bag of apples as opposed to buying something like a Big Mac. Probably not. Very often they don’t have teeth enough to eat them. I learned that by a personal homeless encounter awhile back. As to giving what you like to eat, that is the “do unto others” most of us have heard or been taught. No rationalizations—we are bigger than that.


    • November 21, 2014 at 12:01 pm

      The face of homelessness is so varied… children, young adults, single mothers, veterans, men, women, the elderly. Not just the toothless. But I get your point. Observing the needs before giving is important.


  • November 20, 2014 at 5:06 pm

    This post rocks Maisie…and it rocked me.
    My personal love of pickled beets aside, your message is one that we all need to hear – thank you thank you thank you for sharing it.


    • November 21, 2014 at 12:02 pm

      Aw… thanks, Devon! I’ve been contemplating writing this post for a long time. Glad that it resonated with you!


  • November 21, 2014 at 7:00 am

    Beautifully written, Maisie. It wasn’t until I ran a youth center in an impoverished area that I realized how many of us think the poor should be happy with whatever we donate. I remember being floored when someone dropped off a box of used toys that included a doll missing an eye, a truck with no wheels, and a number of smelly, stuffed toys that had obviously been chewed on by a pet. I’m still convinced that was meant as a cruel joke.

    Did you hear about the 90-year-old who was arrested in Florida for feeding the homeless in public? Doesn’t that sound like the start of a cruel joke, too?


    • November 21, 2014 at 12:05 pm

      What an impactful experience, Yoneco! I am sure the images of crappy toys will be emblazoned in your mind forever.

      I have been following the story of the man in Florida that is repeatedly being arrested for feeding the homeless. It breaks my heart every damn time. Humanity, with its power to do such great good, can also be a big old jerk.


  • November 23, 2014 at 11:33 pm

    Fierec, and fearless! Great post, Maisie. Holding up the mirror, indeed. Often I’m scared to voice out loud my own rationalizations in case others don’t think the same way. Way to go gal, AND I needed your Thanksgiving spirit. Thank you!


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